I pretty much hate my body and wish I had the motivation to do something about it. I always so ‘oh tomorrow i’ll stop eating this’. ‘next week i’ll start working out’. I’ve been saying this for months. But starting TOMORROW, I’m cutting carbs and soda and dairy and trying to work out everyday. None of my pants fit right anymore. My shirts are becoming too tight. I feel flabby. I can feel my sides giggle when I walk. That is soo awkward to admit but it’s true. It disgusts me. I downloaded 8 minute abs tonight when I got home from work. Even though I have back problems and can’t lift my shoulders all the way off the floor, I will do this. Everyday. I have an eliptycal in my garage that I can use whenever I want to. But do I? NOPE. Why? BECAUSE I AM A LAZY FAT ASS WHO DOES NOTHING BUT SIT ON THE INTERWEBZ AND SNACK ALL DAY LONG. SIx years ago today I graduated from high school and I weighed barely 120 pounds. I want to be back to that. My license says I weigh 120. I should be truthful about that right? That’s about 15 pounds. I can do it. I just need some motivation. I don’t know what it’s gonna be. A new swim suit maybe. Not that I really go swimming or anything. I just feel fat and disgusting. I know I’m not ~fat or whatever but this is fat for me. I don’t want to be ashamed to wear shorts in public. I’m tired of my love handles hanging over the top of all my pants. I’m just sick of it. I’m done. I want to be skinnier.