I pretty much hate my body and wish I had the motivation to do something about it. I always so ‘oh tomorrow i’ll stop eating this’. ‘next week i’ll start working out’. I’ve been saying this for months. But starting TOMORROW, I’m cutting carbs and soda and dairy and trying to work out everyday. None of my pants fit right anymore. My shirts are becoming too tight. I feel flabby. I can feel my sides giggle when I walk. That is soo awkward to admit but it’s true. It disgusts me. I downloaded 8 minute abs tonight when I got home from work. Even though I have back problems and can’t lift my shoulders all the way off the floor, I will do this. Everyday. I have an eliptycal in my garage that I can use whenever I want to. But do I? NOPE. Why? BECAUSE I AM A LAZY FAT ASS WHO DOES NOTHING BUT SIT ON THE INTERWEBZ AND SNACK ALL DAY LONG. SIx years ago today I graduated from high school and I weighed barely 120 pounds. I want to be back to that. My license says I weigh 120. I should be truthful about that right? That’s about 15 pounds. I can do it. I just need some motivation. I don’t know what it’s gonna be. A new swim suit maybe. Not that I really go swimming or anything. I just feel fat and disgusting. I know I’m not ~fat or whatever but this is fat for me. I don’t want to be ashamed to wear shorts in public. I’m tired of my love handles hanging over the top of all my pants. I’m just sick of it. I’m done. I want to be skinnier.
May 31 - Memorial Day, day off, vacuumed and had some friends and family over for BBQ and games.
June 1 - Inservice Day at work, I was there, school was closed. Got lots done. Payday.
June 2 - Worked. Went to Sex and the City 2 with Sarah.
June 3 - Worked.
June 4 - Worked.
June 5 - Worked. Two extra hours. Played Apples to Apples.
June 6 - Church. Jammed. Dinner soon. Made croutons.
Sunday.
We went to the zoo. I love the zoo. It was raining pretty much all day. But I didn’t care. I WAS AT THE ZOO. The otters were my far my favorite. They were playing with each other. Like full on leaping on each other. It was adorable. Went to The Ram afterwards for beer battered fish and chips. OM NOM NOM. Played games after wards. Finished up Harry Potter weekend and went to bed.
Saturday.
Work. So many students called in. So many appointments to move around and deal with angry impatient guests. Did I care? No actually. I don’t know why I was in such a carefree mood that whole day but I was. Maybe it was because I somewhat expected it. Holiday weekend. Students are gonna call out on a Saturday. Oh well. Everything worked out as far as I can remember.
We had breakfast for dinner when I got home from work. Eggs bacon and bisquits. Yum. Yum. Watched Harry Potter weekend on the couch with Stinky Jack. And that was about it really.
May 5th - May 28th
5 - I didn’t work this day. Went to Bible Study.
6 - I got my hairs did.
7/8 - worked
9 - Mom’s day. Church then yard work and dinner.
10 - work then got my hairs cut
11 - work
12 - off day. bible study.
13/14/15 - work work work!!
16 - church. then laundry probably. oh and hair!
17 - i was off and saw clash of the titans with my friend black john and spent too much money at hot topic.
18 - i got my lovely braces on. woo! not. and i worked.
19 - work and bible study.
20/21 - work work!
22 - amber pacific/runner runner show in seattle with ariel. awkward hangs with greg after. hahaha.
23 - church and leader meeting and laundry and hair
24/25 - work and hair.
26 - work then bible study luau at the park
27 - work and my first ‘favorite’ graduated.
28 - this is today and i am off and chilling in my sweats at home.
Tuesday May 4th.
I worked ten hours again. It was worse this day. Because I closed and the day drug on and on. I started to become delirious towards the end of the day. And did something wrong during closing. Oops. :| Glee was good. I need to update my itunes with this seasons songs still.
Monday May 3rd.
I worked a ten hour shift. Holy moley was that a long day. It didn’t feel that long because I opened and the first two hours of the shift don’t really feel like work. It felt busy because we were short staffed but it wasn’t too bad.
Sunday May 2nd.
Drove down to Olympia to meet my BFF Randi for an afternoon of shopping. It was nice to see her again. We hadn’t hung out since about February. We shopped all afternoon. Found some good deals. Scored some sweet stuff. It was nice. That reminds me I need to call her sister and give her her mom’s mothers day gift. Can’t forget!
Saturday May 1st.
I worked till 7. Then headed up to Seattle for This Providence. Got there during He Is We. I wasn’t really impressed. They were boring. And she talked about how she wanted to like fuck Aaron Gillepsie. Um… he’s married. Thanks. The Bigger Lights was alright. I haven’t been able to get into them quite yet. The Audition was awesome. Duh. It’s The Audition. Danny reminds me of ~old Pat Stump. Haha. And This Prov was killer as always. We ended up somehow talking to Dan Young’s mother-in-law. Haha. She was adorable. I ended up leaving early because I couldn’t stand much longer and I had a killer headache and I was starving. So I went home. But it was still a good show. Bummed I missed out on ‘Letdown’ and meeting Mariah but there will be other times!!
